september 1999
september 2
I can't believe I'm going to be a senior already. That is SO scary. I never believed we would have made it this far. But I did, so that's all that matters.
Registration on Tuesday was a hellish experience. I went with Neith and Jessipud, and we arrived around nine fifteen. First, we followed these girls who appeared to know where they were going, but we soon ditched them and tagged along behind a couple of juniors. Lines are bad. Our line was about a thousand miles long. We stood in line for over an hour, moving sporadically before even starting the registration process. While in line, we talked about a bit of everything, mostly porn star gimmicks (inspired by Jill, who'd we seen not long after getting in line - Neith made another one of her accurate observations and said she looked like a nurse in a porno, minus the cap and hypodermic needle) and music.
Registration itself only took about twenty minutes or so. After that, we hopped along to the counselors. Some moron had given me Math Analyis (Math Anal, said the abbreviated version on my schedule), which is fine for excelling-type people, but Algebra II was my last ride on the math train, thank you. I also needed to get into PE for one last semester of walking and talking.
I'd never met my counselor before, but I have the same one as Jessipud so we went. Neithy had to see hers as well, but her counselor was being a nerd and not seeing anyone. We waited in line 2 hours to see Mrs. Valdez (I met her husband when I finally got in there BTW). By the time we were done with that, it was past one. I was hot, tired, and hungry. The only thing I'd consumed that day was a handisnack. We had to go to the library to get our textbooks. Ugh. That was another half hour of waiting for the library to open (they had gone to lunch) and then the line just got longer and longer. I saw Bunny there and she'd just arrived at 1:30. Hmph. I got my government, economics, french, english and psychology books. I've already put covers on the first three - I put the plain white side of the bookcovers on the outside, then put Smashing Pumpkins pictures on them and then a transparency sheet so the ink won't smear.
I miss people. I hope my classes don't suck. I have PE first (where I will most likely be with a bunch of sophomores), and then Careers in Education. Third I have Psychology (kickass! Balu is my idol) followed by English IV (Paul said Mrs. McBride is nice, I hope so). Fifth I have French IV, which will be cool because actually it is a mixed class - it's the 4 or 5 of us in French IV, the French III people (Neithy is one of them) and, said Mrs. Green while we were waiting in line for the counselor, one of the French II classes. Wow. last I'm going to have American Government, which I know will suck work-wise but Jessipud is in my class so it's all good.
I hate the first day of school - it always feels so awkward. I finally went clothes shopping today. At Target I actually found three pairs of jeans - one of them has a detachable pocket. I also threw a gorgeous pink-sparkle nail polish into the basket before Mom could protest. Hehe. I also got some socks and underwear.
september 7
First day of school. Argh. The first day was painless, but excruciatingly hot, and pretty boring.
I was very tired this morning - last night I went to bed a bit after ten, actually fell asleep sometime after eleven, and then woke up at 3 AM. I was like "Huh?" since there was no real reason why I'd woken up. Anyway, for an hour, I drifted in and out of sleep; everytime I would fall asleep, I'd wake up and only a few minutes would have passed. At four o clock, I finally fell asleep for more than a few minutes - I slept for a grand total of half an hour before waking up. My alarm was set to go off in 15 minutes so I was like "Forget it" and just got into the shower. I was ready for school by 6 AM. Argh.
I was kind of nervous, but only until I saw my friends. Then I realized this will just be another year of the same old stuff at PHS. I went to my locker to drop off my books, since I'd brought all the horrible things with me, and then it was time for first period, which was Fitness and Conditioning (our PE class where we just walk around the track aimlessly for about an hour). Everyone gathered around behind the gyms and stood for about half an hour before the teachers started getting everyone organized. The chick who was supposed to be my teacher, Mrs. Bruno, is out recovering from a hip surgery or something along those lines, and so we got this sub lady. Luckily for her, the sub lady was the bearer of GOOD news: the school is putting in new lockers in our locker rooms (Duh) and doing various other work (aka: sitting there and drinking beer), and the lockers haven't even ARRIVED yet, so we don't have to dress for PE for like a month! The sub actually said: "You can either walk around the track, or you can just sit around and get the same amount of points - your grade is going to be based mostly on attendance for awhile." I was so happy! If I was a religious-type person, I would've been on my knees thanking the Lord. Hehe. Anyway, the only person in that class that I'm kind of friends with is Laura. Hmm.
Second period I have Careers in Education, in which there's only about 11 people, none of them really friends of mine. I want to switch out of that class and into Word Processing, since Mr. Dexter said last year it's going to be his last semester here probably. Besides Jessipud would be in my class so that would be kind of cool. At brunch she went to my locker with me (I had the time to put up a couple of pictures while she went to the bathroom) and then we went over to the c-side. We found Neithy and Shawn and we started talking about whatever. Then Neithy saw Mr. Myers so I yelled at him, and when he came over Neithy made fun of him for having grey hair, and he said he'd name one after her which I thought was kind of cool. I wish that *I* had a grey hair named after me. Oh yeah, and he yelled at us because Paul didn't show up for his class or something. :::Shrug:::
Third period I have psychology, a class in which nearly everyone and their mom was in. Me, Tom, Tanya, and a bunch of these other people I know. Paul showed up there, which I thought was rather funny because he wasn't even registered yet. Fourth period Paul went to class with me, because I had English with the teacher he had last year. English sounds like it will be fun class, because she said we're going to do lots of writing and reading and such. At the beginning of lunch, I walked with Paul to go see Mr. Myers so he could tell him he was in his class twice (poor Myers) but instead we found this one girl that Paul introduced me to. I forget her name but it was cool. I liked her hair. Paul said she had met Neithy earlier and then I remembered Neith telling me about some chick she met who was into like goth and vampire stuff (Neith later in french gave me the chicks webpage address, and her page was pretty cool).
What else? Oh, so I went across the street, and I met up with Neithy someplace, and we went over to Mr. Lindeman's old classroom. It was nice and cool in there. Now it's Mr. Malazahn's classroom but Mr. Matisoo is the sub so I found that mildly amusing. We got bored and went to Mr. Lindeman's new classroom across the street and it was scary, because it looked prison-y and scary and I'm going to have nightmares about it. (Going across the street to his class was scary, because I saw someone, and he was cute, and I tried not to look at him, but I like, did. Oops). Anyways, we scared Mr. Lindeman and I think he got all worried when I told him about the 35 year old guy over in North Carolina (I think) who sent me a picture of a chastity belt through e-mail. It was weird.
In french, Neithy and I were late because we stopped over to get a bottled water and when we arrived in french nearly everyone was there. We managed to get two seats by Chris though. It was weird seeing so many people in that class.
Last I had American Government with Jessipud, and Shawn and Bridget were in my class too so that was kind of cool. I have a homework assignment for that class, in fact, I have to watch the evening news and write about five of the stories. Ugh. I HATE the news. So what else? Oh yeah, after school, I went hopping around looking for my counselor so I could make an appointment or whatever to change my second period, but I couldn't find her and it was hot and lines were long, so, I just left. I'll try to catch her tomorrow, or whenever the deadline is to change classes, otherwise I'm kinda screwed. :::Sigh::: Well, the day could have been worse. I guess.
Oh! It was cool. After getting tired of chasing the elusive Mrs. Valdez, I was walking to the car, I passed all these kinderpunks (well, some of the old ones, I don't think any of them were freshmen) and they all glared at me. Heheh..
september 8
Whee. Two days of school done, two more to go and then it's Saturday again. Yay.
I got to school at about 7:30 this morning and went immediately to go find my counselor, and I had wait in line 45 minutes. Yes, 45. And I was only in her office for like two minutes! Oh well. I got switched in Jessipud's second period so I was happy. It was cool when Mr. Dexter embarrassed her. But then he embarrassed me so that kind of sucked.
Anyways, I was late to first period and I was all lonely because I couldn't find Laura until the end of class when we had to take roll call again. Hmm.
In second we just typed the whole time, and my hands hurt. That sucked.
Brunch was brunch, I went to my locker to drop off a couple of books, then went across the street because Neithy had told me to meet her there. We sat in Mr. Lindeman's old room for a couple of minutes, but she left because she had to go see her counselor about something or other. It was a bit till third period (And Balu is always late anyway, it's one of his trademarks) so I wandered over to Mr. Myers' room, which I think is haunted. I like how it has the stage in it though. Hmm. Third period was rather amusing as usual.
In fourth (English) we had to write these essays on the teacher who we admire most and I hate writing about things like that. It always sounds so impersonal. Oh well. Mrs. McBride is nice. She's pretty funny too. At lunch, I put up nearly all the rest of my pictures in my locker, and then Neith and I headed over to Mr. Lindeman's new room. Luckily for him, he was nowhere to be found. We had the room pretty much to ourselves, until this one chick-teacher who shall remain nameless came in and started hunting for him. She wrote him a rather elaborate and extremely articulate letter which included bits of the following information: Her daughters first day of kindergarden sucked, she has decided to start taking medication to go to sleep, and various other rantings in horribly structured sentences (*My* sentence structure is cute!) and my favourite part: the end, in which she said in really big letters, "BITE ME WORLD!" It was so funny. Anyway, Mr. Lindeman wasn't back, so Neith and I were inspired to write our own letter. It was amusing.
We got to french and secured seats on both sides of Chris, but then we got a seating chart. Ugh. Sixth period was probably about as interesting as a class for American Government could actually get. Ah well.
september 9
The EmptyVee Music Video Awards are on tonight. Ew.
Well, I am SO glad tomorrow is Friday. I've been so tired. Every day since school has started, I've woken up around 4 AM for no good reason, unable to go back to sleep. School's all right. At least my schedule is settled. PE was pretty boring. Because of a few drops of rain that fell, we had to go into the cafeteria.
Second period we seniors got to go to an assembly. It was supposed to be like a pep talk from the new principal and our administrators, but instead it was disillusional. I can't explain why but it felt all false and cheap.
september 10
Finally Friday at last! "Dieu merci c'est vendredi" as we'd say in French class. Hmm.
Tomorrow I'm supposed to go with Paul and Bunny to see Stigmata, but I don't even know what time. Duh. Ah well.
Today was relatively boring. I was rather lonely in PE because Laura went off to talk to one of her friends or whatever. I guess Rebukah really does have PE first period. She's such a snob, she never even acknowledges me if she's with her friends. Her loss not mine.
In Word Processing we just did some more typing. Psychology was very funny, but mostly boring, so I did another review for my web page. I also thought of a few rants to do.
In English we got a bit of "Black Like Me" read aloud to us. I should probably pick up that book again - I haven't read it since I was a sixth grader. Wow. That was like a super long time ago.
At lunch Neith and I went to Mr. Lindeman's room and we had a grand old time. Actually it was pretty funny because one of the tables nearly fell on me (long story). We wrote him another three page letter, even though we had seen him at the beginning of lunch and he told us not to. Well, that's what he gets for not sticking around. Heh.
In French we just reviewed some verbs and such. In government we had to do this weird assignment where we had to make our own government. I was in a group with Jessipud, Shawn, and this one chick JacQuia. It took quite a while because, after all, it was sixth period and Friday. We just wanted to go home and go sleep or something.
september 11
Not much else. My brother went to spend the night at Johnny Ray's. Thank god. That boy drives me crazy sometimes.
I can't find my glasses. That's not good. I just finished doing some more music video reviews for my web page. I watched them on tape, of course - MTV doesn't play videos (Why would they? It's only named Music Television after all), and I only get VH1 from 4 AM to 4 PM - I really wish VH1 and Comedy Central were entirely seperate channels. Stupid cable company.
I'm so mad at this movie that's on right now on Lifetime. This woman keeps being "distracted" (like sleeping or in the shower of something) and she will leave her baby in a weird place - like on the bathroom floor while the tub is overflow- ing, or in the crib while something on the stove starts burning and smoking. It's like, Hello - she's trying to kill the baby, either consciously or unconsciously. Just get the baby AWAY from her, all right?
People don't learn from experience, unfortunately. I want to write about that. Sometimes it's really hard to write though - even when I have ideas. The only time I don't do that is with my poems/songs. In writing stories or essays or whatever, it's no trouble getting ideas, but getting them from my head on to paper is difficult. It isn't that I'm not smart enough to, I just get lazy sometimes. I'm so conceited. Haha. Actually, last night online this guy I talk to wrote me a letter about how I'm "extremely intelligent" and stuff, because he read these things I had on my webpage. I know I'm smart but I'm not the smartest. Ah well. That guy is pretty much just telling me what I want to hear. But I can most definitely understand that at this point in my life...
september 12
Nothing much really happened today. I managed to sleep in until six thirty. Ugh. I just woke up woke up and couldn't go back to sleep. I did a lot of reading and junk until I got in the shower.
My brother came back around 3 or 4 in the afternoon and that kind of sucked, cause I was using the computer and right away he started whining to get on. Today I started to re-organize my story-ideas binder, which took awhile. I got a really cool but kind of weird idea from a dream that i had last night. It was strange and rather disturbing. I'd rather not go into it, though. I haven't worked on any of my stories in about forever. It was nice writing (or trying to write, anyway) after a long time of not doing it.
Ghost was on TBS tonight. That is so my movie. I haven't seen the whole thing since it came out - whenever it's on TV, I always miss just about the first 45 minutes at least.
september 13
Another Monday. Ugh. I woke up at 4 AM as usual. Monday is always the worst day to wake up. You just wish it was Sunday so that you could sleep in. Not like I ever really sleep in anyway.
First period I brought my jacket so I could set it on the ground so that I could sit down and read. If I had known how cold the wind would get I would've brought another jacket to wear.
Second and third period were of little consequence. I always feel kind of lonely in third. When I took psychology last year, Paul and Jessipud were in my class so I always had someone to talk to.
In fourth we went over the the library to pick up "All Quiet On the Western Front". I was in line for like half an hour before finally checking out a copy. I was rather apprehensive because I heard that book was super boring, but when I went home and read it, it wasn't bad at all.
French was confusing - it really is weird having three different levels of learning in one class. Especially when two of them are below the level they should be at anyway.
In government, we attempted to do more work on our own government thing. I say attempted because we kept getting distracted and sidetracked. We spent like the last 15-20 minutes of class looking for JacQuia's nose ring because it had fallen out. It was werid going home with a full car again. It was me, Bunny, Chris and Paul (and my mom driving of couse, since I have the driving phobia thing).
I'm glad that we don't have to give Rebukah a ride anymore. When we'd go to her house in the morning, we'd always have to wait for her because she's slow in the morning. Then after school, we'd have to wait 15-20 minutes for her - she'd say she had to go to her locker, but that doesn't take that long. She probably talked to her friends who are just as snobby as she is. Hmm.
I was mad at myself when I was online tonight - I was checking through my web page, and I noticed a bunch of stuff wasn't there. I realized all the pages I thought I'd updated, I'd forgotten to upload, and I'd already deleted them so now I have to fix them again tomrrow. Duh.
september 14
Nothing out of the ordinary. I spent PE sitting on the ground and reading which gets quite uncomfortable after awhile. Oh, and I did another rant for my web page which was kind of fun.
In second we began our "Who I Am" papers. If I still have mine from last year, I may just submit it again. I'm so lazy hehe.
At brunch I was messing around with that huge, ugly english book and it almost killed me. I swear, one more inch lower and it would have slit my wrist. Ouch.
I can't really remember what happened in third. In english we got a seating chart (alphabetical) but my name had somehow been left off of the roll sheet so I'm some place near the end.
At lunch, Mr. Lindeman finally stayed in his room. Neith showed him these adorable comics she got of Lenore, a little dead girl. They amused me. And Chrissy showed up which was kinda cool.
I don't really remember french except Neith and I had this paper going back and forth of these cool pictures we kept drawing.
In government I sprawled all over the floor to work on our poster, which we have to present tomorrow. What fun!
september 15
Ag. I didn't go to school today. Last night, around a quarter to six, I got all dizzy and stuff and everything was spinning. So anyway, I fell asleep around six or so, and I was in and out of sleep for a few hours until I actually went to bed. I felt only slightly better this morning so I went to the doctor. She said that I have like fluid in my ear or something and that was making me feel dizzy and stuff. Since I'm allergic to penicillin, she had to give me Septra. I hate those pills - they're super big, and I have to break them in half so I don't choke on them. They're better than the liquid, though, which is a disgusting pink and tastes like a cross between chalk and rotten milk. I haven't had it in years.
So once we got home I didn't do much. Read, did my homework that was due in government today (hehe), worked on my web page, and watched "Ferris Bueller's Day Off". That movie is tremendously funny. I should be able to go back to school tomorrow I think - if not, then definitely Friday.
september 21
I'm in psychology right now writing this. I don't like this class this year. Although it's only been a couple weeks. I was doing a journal on the computer last night actually, but the computer froze and I didn't even get a chance to save. Damn.
So yesterday was boring. I felt like crap just about all day (from about 9:30 AM until I went to bed). Cramps, a headache, and dizziness are a damn bad combination. The only class I really enjoyed was French, cause we didn't do anything except present our projects. Lunch was fun too, although it was rather difficult to explain to Mr. Lindeman why I believe in bending spoons with your mind, but I don't believe dinosaurs ever existed. :::Shrug:::
Jessipud wasn't in school yesterday so I was lonely in sixth. Today has also been, so far, excessively normal. In second, my computer was being stupid and not printing - then it wouldn't let me use the A drive. Ugh.
I just realized my journal entries make me seem really boring. I probably am. There's just nothing going on. I feel like filling up time so I'll write about whatever. Hmm.
Well, during the last two days, three people I once liked (okay, I still like one) have talked to me (though it was nothing interesting, they at least acknowledged my presence. Good enough).
My nail polish is realy pretty - I mixed this crimson color with gold. I'm very bored with music lately. I turn on the radio and all I ever hear is crappy bands like Limp Bizkit, Kid Rock, and Korn (who has had a couple of good songs, but they DO all sound the same). At least KVHS is nice enough to play Pumpkins withim 15 minutes of me turning it on. They also don't have a lot of commercials. Yay. KWOD is still my favourite though - Nick Monroe is my IDOL. So anyway. Yeah, I can't get lost in music the way I used to. SP's new album doesn't come out until February, I have no idea about Placebo, Veruca Salt is no longer together, and, well, I could go and get Celebrity Skin, but I don't think I will. Courtney Love is scary now. I need some more bands to listen to. I want to get some David Bowie CD's. He kicks ass. My dad has like one of his CD's so I always steal it. I can honestly say that David Bowie is the the hottest old guy I've ever seen. Hehe.
Hot Bacon is no longer at my school. Damn cute guys who don't stay. Damn them to HELL! Or something.
september 27
Another journal coming to you from psychology. Ugh. I am tremendously tired. I think the last time I wrote was Tuesday. Nothing too interesting has happened since then.
I finally found someone to like - kind of. Very unfortunately, he's a freshman, but he's really cute. He doesn't talk much but he seems nice. Blah.
Saturday, I had to go to my cousin's birthday party - they just moved to a new house and it's very nice. My cousin is cool, she's like me when I was her age. Family parties are usually weird though, at least for THAT side of the family because there's no one near my age who ever shows up. The adults are all 35 plus and the kids are all 11 and younger, so I'm like, Duh!
The rides to and from were very nice because I listened to Adore, which is a good CD to listen to in the car. I almost took Mellon Collie but I didn't want to trouble with the case.
Yesterday (Sunday) I cleaned my room (sort of..) and my parents practically rearranged the house so everything was all discombobulated. Paul and Bunny came over at like 5 to watch the WWF thingy. Not like we ever really watch it. I made them help me organize all of my college crap (I had a garbage bag full) so that I only had stuff from colleges in Oregon, California, Washington, Maine, and Illinois. Well, there's nothing else. I am boring.
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